How many straws does 

it take to break the Camel's back?

Please don't be offended by this blog, it is written strictly as a way to vent, a way to let go of the things I cannot change.. It helps me to not be in tears with every little thing that life throws at me as a business owner.  It is written so that others can get a good laugh ( or cry) and enjoy a smile, sometimes at my expense, sometimes at the expense of others. Read it, enjoy it and let it go...

Let's start the week with a stellar Sunday.  Business was good, so good it gave me hope for so very much.   Then we have a bad Monday, so bad we don't even hit the three digits.... sigh.  Makes for a long day trying to figure out what we are doing wrong.  We leave for the night, chalking it up to another rung on the ladder and we will start a new day in less than 12 hours.  We feel beaten but not out of the game.  Tuesday shows up with buying some new product that we weren't expecting but needing so we did it.  The day ends slightly over the 100.00 mark, a far cry from the XXXXX amount needed for the mortgage, let alone the light bill and the heat.  So we give up on Tuesday too... enough so we leave at 4:30 in the afternoon because we have decided that all people suck.... I know, I know, not all people suck but some do and it seems like the scale is tipping to the sucky side for alot more than not.  

Here we are, WEDNESDAY.  Suck it up ( I say to myself), things will get better...  I open the door to a delivery that needs to be paid for.... before they have left I have not one but two people in asking for different donations.... they, of course are car pooling but they have TWO different causes that they need support for.....  SERIOUSLY!!!!  Of course I cannot help but ask, I haven't seen you in before?  Do you girls shop here and I just don't know it?  NO ....... Yup that was the answer, No..... we just know that alot of our friends do and will be at these events and we figured you would donate.  SIGH....  So I go to get an item or two as it should be and they inform me that they really would just like gift cards... at this point I said do you have paperwork for these causes?  Ummm...no but we could get you something and get it back to you...... NOT!!!!   so instead I said I cannot do donations without proper paperwork.... if you get some and come back I will be happy to donate.... am pretty sure those gift cards were gonna be someones birthday presents or something.  And again you wonder why I hate people.  I would put money on the fact that they won't be back.  So here I am wondering if Wednesday is over yet... nope not yet... I find that a product that I brought in is broke....and it is a big item, so that is never a good thing.  I want to cry because there is only so much that I can do....  I have a friend that is going to lose a business because the economy is so bad.  I am holding on but my mental state is getting worse by the day.  I have been so stressed out and wonder how I will make it everyday.  I cannot walk away, BUT I WANT TO.  I sometimes get tired of trying to make life warm and fuzzy, or as one of my friends say "rainbows and puppy kisses" for everyone but me.  If I am the one that speaks up or says something people will say oh what a bitch, but instead they come in, shit all over me and expect me to take it.... only for XX more months.  That is when the mortgage will be paid and that is when I will take my life back.  I know that I made this choice, this choice to own a business... I never expected it to be easy but I did think that with hard work and good ethics I would someday get ahead of the game.   Today's rant is over.... at least until the next person through the door does something ludicrous that I have to post about.